As 2015 comes to a close, I thought about writing. I have written when I was happy, sad, mad, excited, nervous, praising God, after the end of a relationship, and in love. In all of these instances, I wrote from an emotional standpoint. I realized tonight, my resolutions, goals, hopes, and dreams have evolved over time.
2015 has been a year of dreams, plans, and goals coming together. At the start of the year, I was working at massage envy, Bringing Out the Beauty in You, and school for my last semester of my associates and esthetic instructors program. At this time I was just praying to make it through the end of school with my G.P.A intact.
At the start of the year I made my original list of resolutions, and I had good intentions. I wanted to travel more, have more free and family time, lose weight, and finish school.
I started the year off with a mini vacation in Leonard, Texas. New Year's Eve Aaron and I roasted marshmallows on a bonfire, had chili and I made the traditional black eyed peas, cornbread, cabbage, greens and chicken breast. I was cooking and we were vegging on netflix the whole time I was there. It was my return home that made me re-evaluate the list I had made only days earlier.
My job at massage envy was messing with my list of resolutions. I had no support at all from the owners. I was told that taking time off and school was interferring with my work. Really?? I thought to myself this place has got to go. I struggled with the decision to leave until the end of April. I again made a trip up north. However, this trip was related to school and Bringing Out the Beauty in You. I needed the credit hours for class and the Congress was my chance to keep up with industry developments. Upon my return to work I was asked to work more hours. I was at this time, attending classes 5 p.m until 10 p.m., working at massage envy 830 a.m until 4 p.m., working at Bringing Out the Beauty in You Sunday and Monday. I did not have a moment to myself. I had no time for any of my resolutions. I was burning out fast. In May, I asked to work 2 days and was promptly told no. They did not need an employee that was not committed to the company. My thought was I did not need an employer not committed to helping others advance. So I gave my notice.
I did not have a plan outside of working more at Bringing Out the Beauty in You. My family thought I was crazy. I was scared out of my mind but had to pray and take a leap of faith. I was so close to finishing both my certification and my degree plan. I was writing lesson plans for one class and doing homework daily for the other 2 classes. I was really on the edge. I was either at French Quarter, school or home doing homework. I had to cancel a trip that had been planned months earlier. I broke down and cried so many times. ( I don't cry easily) At last graduation! I had time to meet up with friends. I panicked over my state exams. However, as soon as they were over I increased my hours at FQ.
I still did not make time for my list of resolutions. In July, my first grandchild was born. I knew I would do almost anything for our bundle of joy. In August, I turned 50. I celebrated differently this year. Instead of with a mate, I celebrated with my bestie and a few friends. I was going to give my list one more go. I committed to babysitting my grandson when his mom returned to work. I tried to walk more and meditate. I was able to have lunch, bible study and go to happy hour with friends. Just when I was easing into this life I accepted a job working one night a week teaching. I passed my state exams. I still had a little time with friends.
In October, I was asked to join the teaching staff full time. I don't know why but I said yes. I was balancing everything well and learning more about the ciriculum of the school. I was managing to work on my list. It was then that I lost my focus. I was reading so much for teaching and my esthetic business that I was back to having zero free time.
There was a difference though. I was happy. I enjoyed getting up early. I was in awe over the sunrise every morning. I enjoyed learning how to teach. I was finding my way around the cities traffic. I realized I was in a place I had been trying to get for most of my adult life. Where is this strange place you ask? It is the place of working and enjoying it so much that time flies. A place in which you know you can accomplish the next level. A place in which you can see all of your blessings and bless others.
I am there now. Going into 2016, I know that there are some things in my plan. Yes, I still would like to shed the pounds. It was the goal that lost out all year. My reasoning however, has changed. I want to be a healthier me. Not to appear sexy for or because of my mate. I did not wait for the new year to start working on this goal. I have been walking as much as I could since our break started. I do plan to travel more this year. Vegas is already on the books for June. Having a new grandchild has brought the family together more and for that I happy.
My list this year is different. I want to be blessed, (I know God will be blessing me), healthy, happy, have time for family and friends and lastly to learn and grow. Yes, I do have goals but until they are broken I will keep them to myself.
I wish everyone happiness, love, blessings and peace.
Lisa
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